“What are you feared of most?”…The obvious answer to this question is off course “Dying”! Death is the most frightening thing for most of us. But today I met my childhood friend & happened to talk about her life lasting ‘problem’. Now I think I need to change the answer of this most obvious question ‘What are you feared of most?’
How one so called ‘problem’ in your life could be more frightening than ‘Death’? Even I had the same question in my mind till today. But today I feel I was wrong! ‘If you have courage you can overcome any situation’, this bookish statement I always used to say to myself and got motivated every time. But her problem was beyond all these thoughts; it was beyond her capacity even if she makes her capacity double, triple or quadruple and so on…
Some issues in life are like slow poison! You are the healthiest may be but falling short to solve the ‘problem’. You have got strongest feet but you just can’t run away from your own ‘problem’. At this age, looking at the ‘problem’ you wish to reborn and live the life again to restructure it in such a way that you can somehow be capable to tackle this ‘problem’ but that’s what is not possible! You have skillful hands but they are not good enough. Your brain can think as black as possible but still you lack! Sometimes saying "All izz well" doesn't work!!!
You are just newly married with loads of plans and suddenly one day you realize, you simply can’t plan anything! You can’t expect anything and merely you just can’t even think of “expecting”! All your dreams which remained dreams only till today are going to still remain dreams forever! The problem is eating up her mind, soul, everything like cancer just difference is she can’t even die sooner!
When will I have my first car? Where should I buy a house? How to make systematic investment? Will by L1B get approved? How to plan marriage? How to save maximum tax? What the f**k!!! These are the tiniest issues I am worried of in my life. I got chance to peep into someone else’s life n realized her ‘problem’…Its huge!!! The problem is so huge that even if you simply live your life without enjoying any single moment is like winning! Here forget about fear of death but death is something you are not bothered about rather you don’t have time to die! The ‘problem’ is compelling her to top the university in her studies but she even don’t have time to celebrate it as she knows its not just sufficient!!! ‘State of life’ taught her everything today and she is just thankful to god for this…She has accepted this everything as her ‘Destiny’…
It’s an eye opener to me. Life stretched my boundaries and it made me realize that ‘whatever you are expecting from you life; life is expecting much more than that from you!’ Irrespective of whether you are capable of, you should just do it! Her ‘problem’ asked me to think beyond my capacity, beyond my ability & beyond my age limit. Limit extends to infinity sometimes in real life too…
- ab
